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Marvel
24 November 2011 @ 06:23 pm
I'm thinking about cutting my hair again.

Right now, though, I'm sitting in the Subway at the local Walmart waiting for Nil to be off of work. Still kind of pissed they made her work Thanksgiving. I miss my family but I'm mostly trying to keep my mind off of it... I would have liked to make it home for Thanksgiving. My family's pretty obnoxious, yeah, but they're mine and all that food is sounding pretty good right now.

Got my Sora app done for demeleier and I'm having fun with Cloud over at polychromatic, especially now that I'm getting more tags and tagging some other people's posts. Getting back into LJ RP is acting as a nice sort of pick me up since I don't really have much else to do with my time right now.

Still haven't told my parents I'm planning on withdrawing for the semester. Oh well.

Aaand I'm running out of things to say.

I would be so much less bored right now if I had remembered to bring my headphones. They play shitty music here.
 
 
 
Marvel
18 November 2011 @ 12:22 pm
I want a project.

I want something immersive.

I'm fucking bored.
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Marvel
06 November 2011 @ 01:52 am
(The article I'm referring to in this entry is here.)

Apparently to not grant this get-out clause is to act, as Gary Glenn, president of the American Family Association of Michigan, puts it, as “a Trojan horse for the homosexual agenda.”

/head

/fucking

/DESK

You know, I wonder what they think the homosexual agenda even is. Because whenever they mention it all I can think of is the first ten seconds or so of this:



"The same thing we do every night, fellow gays. Try to take over the world!"

Just. What.
 
 
 
Marvel
05 November 2011 @ 10:12 pm
So, I sort of had a breakdown and now I'm probably withdrawing from university for the remainder of the semester, since I haven't been to class in two weeks due to some kind of weird terror/anxiety/depression that keeps me in the house playing video games most of the time.

I'm in counseling for the first time in my life so I can go back next semester, which is the good news. Probably should have done this sooner.

Basically, things are terrific, by which I mean shitty and it's all I can do to keep my head above water most days, but I'm pretty much okay. I've been MIA everywhere recently but that's mostly because there's nothing to say. "What did you do today?" "Oh, I stayed in the house all day again because I was too scared to go to class." So much for small talk, right?

In the end I'll be fine, but I'm not really fine right now and it kind of sucks. I'm handling it. It's slow going.
 
 
 
 
 
Marvel
26 October 2011 @ 12:03 pm
So I lost the book I was supposed to read and write a five-page essay on for tomorrow. Discovered this on Monday. Attempted to find new copy on Tuesday (tried the university bookstore, off-campus textbook store, and local chain bookstore; nothing). Responded to failure by just not fucking caring anymore.

I'm pretty pissed off because I have no idea how I could have lost it. I got all my books online before the semester even started, and organized them on shelves above my desk. I have not touched the thing since--I haven't had any REASON to--and it was just. Not there.

I'm also pissed because even though I know this is not my fault--it's not anybody's fault--it's still something I'm going to be penalized for because there's no way I can walk up to a professor going "I lost my book" and be taken seriously. I'm sure there are plenty of students every semester who conveniently "lose their books," making the rest of us look like obvious liars (thanks, assholes).

This is also the same professor I emailed about my social anxiety problems on Monday regarding the upcoming "Halloween Ball" in class on Thursday and have not heard back from. The gist of the matter is, we're required to wear costumes and wearing costumes can sometimes be a really effective trigger for my social anxiety. I'm doing okay this semester, although I'm still adjusting to being around large groups of people again, and this could screw it all up for the rest of the year. My social anxiety only flares up occasionally these days and I'm way better than I used to be, but I had a bad, bad summer and I'm not going to take any risks. However, we're counted for two absences if we're not present for this thing--the maximum is three before we're docked points, and I already have two from being sick earlier in the semester.

AND, if I miss it and am docked points AND I fail to get this paper done (which is pretty much inevitable at this point) I'm going to have an automatic B, at best, in the class. In an English class. Which is my thing.

So yeah. At this point, I'm just going oh well. Whatever. Why should I care when I can do fuck all about it anyway?

/still cares, can you tell >>
 
 
 
Marvel
24 October 2011 @ 11:48 am
Dear kid who was pacing among the crowd outside Starbucks this morning ranting quietly into his phone about "fucking latino spics":

(ノ °益°)ノ ︵ (\ .o.)\

God I wish it wasn't illegal for me to fuck your shit up. Or at least smash your phone.

Rant a little louder next time, kid, instead of muttering. Let the people hear how much of a pathetic fucking child you are.

People are disgusting.
 
 
 
Marvel
I did a double take today when I passed a poster in the student union that said "Relive our childhoods! 90s night." I stopped to read the rest, and then kept walking when I got to the "featured artists."

"Britney Spears! Backstreet Boys! New Kids on the Block!"

... (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

I AM DISAPPOINT, UNIVERSITY.

also variety you are doing it wrong, jesus fucking christ. 90s music was not all boy bands and Britney Spears. REMOVE HEAD FROM SPHINCTER, THEN PLAN 90s NIGHT.
 
 
 
Marvel
19 October 2011 @ 11:51 am
THE ONE ARCHETYPE MEME that I think I did a while ago but I don't remember.Collapse )

I am an... angry guy tsundere tomboy?

...

you know what, shut up
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